18.7.21

just a super quick entry to show the new diary layout for ppl on neocities!! i think its so much better i love the look of it being like a real diary ^__^

15.7.21

school is DONEEEEE FOR THE YEAR YIPEEEEEE so now i have so much time to work loads on this site i have so many freaking ideas!! i really want to do some SHRINES FINALLY!! DFSDGFGASH also YALL.....gusygsusgusy me and oscar have been working on a freaking visual novel as well, because i learnt a lot of stuff in my computing class and i feel totally confident i can make it work lol anyway its a hugee wip and oscars been posting about it on their tumblr!! :3

speaking of computing i feel kind of excited about the future, bc basically in the last week of term (aka do nothing but convince the teacher to let you watch shrek and tiktok) every year group had a careers day and usually erm i FUCKING HATE IT LOL,,bc i never really saw that i would get to a point where id have a career. i havent really spoken about it here too much (if u follow me elsewhere uve probably seen) TW: self harm, eating disorder, suicidal thoughts etc please dont read if this stuff affects you!! i used to be really had, basically doing and having all of the things i mentioned in the tw and a big part of all that depression was not feeling like i had a future. esp where i suspect i am neurodivergent (im not sure with what yet) but i just know that this world has never been built for me so i dont see how i could continue living in such a world. the internet has always been my safe place, but i also realised that sometimes, who ur following and talking to affects you too. so i had to cut a lot of ppl off mainly from tumblr but now i have a much better friendship group on discord and twitter and ive made friends here too!!

uuuh holy fuck but i feel like that was necessary to explain, bc in this careers day it was the first time ever i could see a future. the career lady (side note i still dnt understand how she is paid to sit in an office all day everyday bc she is ALWAYS THERE next to the library im like???????) anyway she said i could go into website design, which does sound fun because coding this website is soooooo fun like but also going into a industry like that, id have to go back to adhering to shitty web 2.0 and 3.0 so i was reluctant but i also thought i could do commissions and sell layouts for artists or people who just want designs like this?? which wouldnt be a whole career but i could make some money. but then she helped me look into computing classes at uni, which i never ever thought id go to but with some degrees it can actually help you go into game design and i would actually really want to do that!! so she helped me come up with a plan for next year, what GCSEs id need to get to go onto the Alevel that the unis want, and she wants me to work on a portfolio over the summer to stand a really good chance so thats part of why me and oscar are doing a vn!! bc oscar also wants to go onto animation at uni and it helps so yeah!! i am excited yall....

i also have been decorating my room with posters and stuff i printed a lot out at school teehee and my mum got me loads of kuromi and mymelody stuff for my bday which was last week!! my room looks so cute

4.7.21

whoooooops long time no update! whats been happening in my life. well ive been on the animal crossing GRIND. nl is just a million times better than nh just being real rn.

so let me tell a sad story. i will show you how it feels to be gods LEAST favourite fr.

i created this beautiful pathway leading up to the town hall, with a fountain and meadow in front and i wake up this morning to see this

i was seriously ready to launch my 3ds into the furthest reaches of space but i checked who it was and it was WHITNEY T______T LIKE.....my best dreamie but also WHAT DA FUUUUUUUK shes staying of course but shes on fucking thin ice and im having to replan this whole thing.

ive been slacking on the shampoodle grind but shes opening tomorrow yaaay! this whole time ive just been going to oscars town to get my haircuts teehee. this is my hair rn!!

its funny how sometimes i still get streetpasses from people. i get oscars like everyday of course

speaking of the real world, well school is nearly done for the year yipee!! and right now is the last time ill ever actually be in the school until july bc next year we finish early bc of the exams which is the only good thing about exams duh

i also had some pocket money left over so i went to the shop and bought a little sushi packet! it was so yummy, and it matched my mask but i wish i had some chopsticks with me!! i hope to go to japan one day it looks so amazing and i will actually be able to find stuff i like over there!! fingers crossed....

FACE REVEAL but not rly....